We’ve
all disobeyed God’s commandments in one way or another and we have to repent
because of that. God is more than willing to forgive us. Since he is our loving Heavenly Father, He’s the last
person who wants to hold a grudge against us for our mistakes. The hard part
about forgiveness is, sometimes, forgiving ourselves. We may beat ourselves up
about some poor choice we made weeks, months, or even years ago. We may think
we’re “broken” and irreparable because of having looked at pornography,
disobeyed our parents, or not doing something we should have to help someone.
So how do we do it? How do we make ourselves realize that we’re not even guilty
of our past mistakes and that there’s more than that mistake that we made?
First
of all, let’s get some perspective here. God freely forgives us. He doesn’t
taunt us saying, “I’ll think about forgiving you. You just have to…” No. If we
really repent, He’ll say, “Your sins are forgiven you.” In the short space of 5
sections of Doctrine and Covenants, God tells people that their sins are
forgiven 4 separate times (D&C 60:7, 61:2, 62:3, 64:3).
So,
we know that God wants to forgive us, big whoop. We’re trying to forgive
ourselves, not God. Well ok then, let’s look at what God expects us to do to
not be guilty in His eyes anymore. D&C 64:7 tells us to confess our sins
and ask forgiveness. Let’s tie that to D&C 58:42-43 where we’re told to
confess our sins and then forsake them. Most sins we can confess to God and
then move on. Even when we need to talk to a priesthood leader about something
we’ve done, their purpose there isn’t to condemn us, it’s to help us. The idea
of confessing is that we can get the guilt we feel inside of ourselves off our
chest so to speak. We can cast our guilt on Christ and leave it at that.
The
Lord told us in D&C 64:9-10 that He’ll forgive whoever he wants to. That’s
his privilege. But our Job is to forgive everybody. I’d say that everybody
includes ourselves. If we can’t leave what we’ve done behind thereby forgiving,
I’d almost argue we haven’t fully repented. We can’t let it torture us.
In
the Book of Mormon, there’s the story of a young man named Alma. He had
committed some pretty serous sins in his youth, but repented as was forgiven on
his sins. Now, the part I’m talking about (Alma chapter 36) is about 25 years
after Alma changed his ways. I have no doubt in my mind that he remembered the
things that he had done when he was trying to destroy God’s church. It’s hard
to forget our mistakes. BUT, in verse 19, Alma says, “And now, behold, when I
thought this [that his sins were forgiven], I could remember my pains no more;
yea, I was harrowed up by the memory of my sins no more.” When he repented, he still
remembered his sins, but the memory of that didn’t fill him with the
inexpressible horror and torment that he had felt before (Alma 36:12-14, 17). When
we really forsake a sin, we still remember it. We’ll probably remember serious
sins forever, in fact, Alma 11:43 tells us that at the final judgment before
God we’ll have “a bright recollection of all our guilt.” But the pain that we
feel from them can be taken away by the Atonement. We can take those feelings
and make them our conviction to never commit that sin again.
Another
problem comes along in the form of perfectionism. Christ himself told his
disciples, “Be ye therefore perfect, even as your Father which is in heaven
(Matthew 5:48). Well, if we all sin, it’s impossible to even get near that
point right? In October 2010, Jorge F Zaballos said in General Conference, “Even when,
from a purely human perspective, perfection can appear an impossible challenge
to achieve, I testify that our Father and our Savior have made known to us that
it is possible to achieve the impossible. Yes, it is possible to achieve
eternal life. Yes, it is possible to be happy now and forever.” (“Attempting
the Impossible” October 2010) That’s why it says in Alma 7:13 ,”…the Son of God suffereth according to the flesh that he
might take upon him the sins of his people, that he might blot out their
transgressions according to the power of his deliverance.” What seems
impossible is completely possible, thanks to Christ’s atonement, forgiveness is
practically guaranteed as long as we do our part by trying to keep the commandments
and try to be better every day.
Joseph
Smith said, “A man is his own tormenter and his own condemner.” We’re the only
ones that prevent ourselves from being forgiven for our sins. God is more than
willing to forgive us if we’ll put ourselves on the path to forgiveness and
learn from our mistakes. So what’s holding us back? He’s waiting to help.